by Mary | Mar 20, 2025 | Testimonies
Rescued from the Deepest Pits I will begin my testimony from childhood. I remember at the age of five, I was living with my father. My mother was never around because she was sentenced to life in prison for murdering her husband and her father. She was drug addicted, mentally ill, and a victim of abuse her whole life. Well, I was living with my dad who sold methamphetamine and crack cocaine and did it daily. He was never around, he was always out partying and selling drugs. I was left home with his girlfriends. When I was six, I began huffing gasoline and spray paint fumes to escape my sadness and confusion. I would have hallucinations of funny voices that would make me laugh and feel happy, and I would see things as well. After a while, it took a dark tone and the voices would torment me and put me down and make things worse. I felt so alone. I was always in the woods as a child, alone and secluded. Finally, I was placed in foster care for like a year. During that time, I was bullied and locked in dark closets and I don’t remember much else. My father got me back and I was 8. From 8 until 10, I lived with him. He was
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by Mary | Mar 20, 2025 | Testimonies
Fear Loses to God So, this is a work-in-progress testimony for me at the moment but I’m going to share my thoughts where I’m currently at. I would have debilitating moments of anxiety, and fear when I would go out in public with my family from 2001 roughly onwards for no reason. It would just happen. There wouldn’t (to the best of my recollection) be a moment where something happened once, and I just associated going out again with a traumatic moment from the past generally. Although now that I think of it there could be a few come to think of it now… Anyway, the fear would rule me for many years. I’d still go out with my family from 2001-2005, but after 2005 it collapsed to the point of not going out at all properly with my family as a whole. I’d still go places with my Mum, Dad and Brother, (but largely from 2006 to now even) I didn’t once go out somewhere with them to dinner or anything like that. The only notable, possibly sole exception was going on holiday in 2009 with them. In addition, the fear would dictate that I not go anywhere myself. Not even into a corner store or doctor. Or some sort of store. I don’t think I’m the type of person you’d associate
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