Really Struggling Right Now

I am really struggling with bills, work, feelings of worth, and doubts. I need to confess and ask for your prayers.

I recently spoke with a pastor who does deliverances, and he helped me confess many sins, like mistrusting Jesus, confusion, fear of man, etc. I feel cleaner than I have in a long time. I am regularly praying for God’s will. I feel humble and grateful.

I struggle with paying my bills. I don’t know why. I work. But what I make is not enough. Sometimes, I have these overwhelming feelings that cause me to get angry with God and lose hope. I hate these moments. Maybe that is when I eat snacks to cover the pain. Sugar snacks.

I am just now being healed from the pain of my parent’s divorce when I was 6.

I was saved by the grace of God when I was a rebellious 16-year-old.

When I was 19, my dad died. I slipped into a deep state. Depressed, suicidal, and had sex with random people to hide my pain. I got herpes. I went into a darker place. Yet, God was with me. Have mercy on me.

When I was 23, I did not want that darkness anymore and simply prayed for healing. I prayed to confess it to a friend. God provided two friends. And after a worship concert at my church, he told me to seek a pastor’s prayer and I would be healed. I did and have never looked back.