Delivered From a Sinful Lifestyle

 When I reached my teenage years and went to High School my sin really started to become manifest. I began to despise authority and in many ways rebelled.

The Apostle Paul said to Titus a fellow believer “For we ourselves were also once foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving various lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful and hating one another” Titus 3:3; this reminds me of myself during those times, I was truly wallowing in the mire of my sin.

Once I left High School I went to college in order to study Music Technology as I desired to go into the music industry, possibly to become a sound engineer. Around this time I started to visit the clubs where the music scene was and this was where I began to build my idols. I was totally deceived and spent the next few years chasing one idol to the next.

My hedonistic and sinful lifestyle soon caught up with me, my empire of sin began crashing down on me and I felt as though I was being crushed. I was in pain and wracked with fear and anxiety. It felt as though my mind was broken and there was no turning back.

In many ways I knew my soul was in trouble and I felt the guilt of my sin so I began to visit a Roman Catholic church on Sundays and often times during week day afternoons. I remember I would go without telling anyone and sit at the back of the church building in despair.

During my visits to the Roman Catholic church I felt a desire to read the Bible and I remember asking for a Bible a few times but there was none to be found. Eventually I stopped going and tried in some way to live what I thought was sensibly but I was still in utter sin and ruin.