God Helped Me Cross that Dark Lane
Believe me, my testimony is not even an atom of my life, I went through so many, so many in my everyday life, every day, when I used to sit in the open terrace thinking how I could kill myself so that I could escape my worldly burdens. I would sleep every night hoping not to get up the next morning. I was just a lonely girl standing in that dark road hoping, looking out for someone, who would actually hold me by my hand; take me to a place where I could actually have space to breathe pure air.
Every morning I woke up with nothing but disappointment. But I knew that God lived and just clung on to my faith, and occasional happiness helped me cling on to Christianity. But the transformation from the person I was to the person I am, it was sudden, all of a sudden.
I read the Bible twice a day, I listen to nothing but Christian hymns. I started loving God, and stopped expecting, I just submitted my entirety, to him. I stopped watching movies, TV, stopped speaking ill of others, started loving others not expecting a reciprocal love, started praying for everybody, stopped worrying because I know for sure that my faith would heal me, I know that my God would take care of me, and even if troubles come my way, I just take it as God’s will and do nothing on my behalf to cure them but pray with all my heart.
But Satan does not let you have your own way, does he? My own people, my family made fun of me, called me a psycho, because my change perturbed them. Temptations came my way, but every time I was subjected to any of them, gods just made me over run them, and I was back to him. Perhaps my poetry would help you understand what I went through better, believe me, things were harder than they seem to be in the poetry.
I write this testimony because, I know, there are many of you down there, questioning your very existence, but let me tell you, God Loves you, and all you have to do, is stop treating him as some holy man who can be consulted once in a while, He is God, He is our awesome God, our savior who taught us to love one another, who would fill our void.
He is our father, look up at him as one, he never leaves us on our own, he is there, always no matter where or at what situation you are in, he is holding you tight. Love him, he needs to be loved. Just stop running behind worldly pleasures, they are vicious. Believe in God, he is the only answer to life’s intricacies.
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