I come from a less-than-ideal childhood. Who hasn’t these days? It was very dysfunctional and overcrowded in the home with extended family. I can also see there was a lot of unaddressed mental illness, and as a result of that, inferior choices were made in regards to children in the house.
There was a lot of enabling of unhealthy behaviour, and no one was training the children for the real world. I had an aunt who allowed her very troubled son to live as a recluse, and she allowed him to waste his potential sitting and watching TV all day, and pretty much being a tyrant, controlling so much in the house. I grew up watching this grown man live that way, not to mention that he traumatised me in many, many ways. I was allowed to watch very grown-up movies from small which were porno some of them.
I suffered a lot emotionally growing up, and I eventually landed in foster care, where I met Tomekia, who was the first to share the gospel with me. She escorted me to the incinerator to throw out my witchcraft books. I ended up there after praying to God to get me out of that house and give me a normal life.
It was a simple prayer, but from my heart, while in tears and pain. I didn’t know who God was at the time, but I prayed something like “God, creator of nature and the beautiful stars, if you are real show me, get me out of this house and give me a normal life”. I knew there had to be a God, but I didn’t know who he was. I was 14/15 years old at the time. I had no home training, and I did whatever I wanted to do.
I’ve been walking with God since foster care. I haven’t always remained within God’s will I but I learned something from each time I screwed up and lived in sin. Backsliding is a terrible thing, but not uncommon in the Christian life. It’s been a rocky road, but I’ve matured each season.
He’s still working on me, and I don’t know where he is taking me next or what’s in store, but I rest in his peace because all things work for the good of those who love God. He said it, and he doesn’t lie. I still struggle with depression and anxiety, but I’m believing in my healing and full deliverance.
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Also Read:
- Understanding God: God of Delegation
- Purpose: Sent to Redeem and Upgrade (1)
- The Pencil Story
- Delivered From a Sinful Lifestyle
- An Easter Reflection
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