More Valuable than Gold
I was sitting down tonight singing and bopping away! And God said to me, do you remember the day you got baptised? “I said, of course, Lord! I’ll never forget the day I had finally been washed off that filth I was carrying. The day you came to me, I asked you when I would know I’ve made the right choices and that I uphold you enough or praise you enough! God, I’m not deserving of the love you give me.
He looked at me and said one step forward is one step forward! Keep walking this holy path and things will make sense! I’ve got a plan for you. I replied Lord, I promise you I’ll try.
Tonight, he came back and said to me, it’s time you tell them. Tell the world.
I couldn’t believe my eyes or more ears! So, it is time for me to tell the world the truth! And it’s time I help those who are wanting but not seeking and those who are lost. My life has always been difficult before I found God I was lost but now I am found! I am a child of God!
I was never a believer I was always just looking for something to fill that void! I had bad relationships after bad relationships. I had been a drug addict and depressed and scared and alone! All I wanted was to feel love! But I didn’t realise the reason I couldn’t find what I was looking for was that in such a wasted brain space and dark area, God’s light was just getting deflected and it took me so long to realise that when the demons that I allied with put their shields in front of me and God was actively seeking me, let me tell you.
But the people around me were getting all his love because if you were next to me, we’re getting the ricochet and I’m not mad that other people got what was supposed to be mine. I just wish I realised earlier! I took the poison that the devil was feeding me he dressed up as an angel and told me everything was gonna be okay! You’re not addicted don’t listen you’re not ruining your life these people don’t get it! Don’t listen to them! You’re great. You’re smart. You’re better than them!
It took me a long time to realise and it came when I least expected it! I’m in a place I thought was in hell, in a place I thought would be a place God doesn’t touch a place full of sin.
I slept for a few days when I finally got the energy to live again, I walked from my induction unit into a maximum-security block with no air no window no yard and 18 hours in the cell! That night I was called up alone and at 4:00 lock-in came I sat back on my pillow after the officers left and I thought, how did this happen? I’m done. I can’t go forward from here! I cried thinking this is it now. I’ve lost everything I’ve lost everyone. I’m in hell and I’ll never be the same after this. 4 years is a lot of time. I’ve seen what happens to people I thought to myself I’ll never be me again!
But man was I wrong. That place is busting from the seams with the Holy Spirit. God wanted me there. He told me himself he was struggling to get his word through the gate. He needed a messenger, and a messenger was exactly what I was! Man, I’m so so blessed that I got to share his word share his love and boost up lads in the yard! The thing about most of us blokes is we seek brotherhood. We seek trust, loyalty, and respect. We just want to bring each other up but for some reason, guys just don’t.
I think I helped 45-50 blokes over my time by guiding them to loving God and what it can bring! My church services showed me I was making a difference we started with about 6-7 and some days in the end we were hitting 45 and this is in a prison with maybe 110 prisoners. I almost got half to join in, we would sing songs in the yard and just share our testimonies and just really appreciate how lucky we really are! I had prayer lessons where we prayed together and just thanked God for the beautiful life he has given us. I have seen blokes cry and hug each other. I saw God’s hand in every one of those prisoners.
In the last few weeks, I’ve found a church that reminds me of how great God is! You walk in that place, and you feel God’s presence not only in the walls but in the people! I’ve only been in society for four months and to some that may seem like nothing other lots but the Lord has blessed me. He’s given me the strength to break the cycle to change. I have a 6-year-old daughter. If you do the math, I’ve missed a lot. I prayed for her to not be held back by me, to blossom like the flower she is. And my daughter is so smart and so beautiful, she’s given me her heart with open arms, and I thank God every day for watching over her. She has started showing interest in church and God, so I’m praying that she too soon will embark with me on this journey!
I have a full-time job and it’s out in the open. I look around every day and see God’s creation and I find it so enriching that he’s given me so so much. I learn more every day and I love more every day! I’m a changed man I’m a saved man and I’m a blessed man! Without faith, without my Father, I never would be where I am. Today!
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Nehemiah’s Leadership Playbook: Social Justice
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Testimonies
Finding God in the Midst of Anxiety & Fallen Dreams
